Why on earth am I telling you this? Because it makes me smile. It’s a simple silly thing and it makes me smile and wish I had thought of it myself. My cousin’s daughter has always been the life of the party. She’s the person you just want to hug. She makes the room brighter just by being in it. So it’s understandable that her little minion would take after her in that respect.
But more seriously, it reminded me of the little things that stand out in a day sometimes in the midst of turmoil and confusion, the unexpected things that make a difference.
I didn’t know when I left home this morning with my heavy heart, fighting off a germ of some kind, exhausted from lack of sleep in hopes of merely surviving the first of many “new normal” Christmases with my husband now in long term care, that I would encounter unexpected things that might have been little on someone’s scale of a day, but for me were big things.
I was counselled and given some thought provoking advice in a conversation which progressed beyond anything I had intended, and it made me look at some things I have been trying to block out. This sweet lady has a way of bringing out things that have been building up in me and calling them as she sees them, with a lot of love in her heart. She asked me straight out what it is that I’m expecting God to do that will make things OK before I stop being angry. And I had no answer, because I’ve been asking myself the same question and I don’t know.
Then I stopped in at my favourite store and was surprised with a special Christmas package of goodies just for me, with a beautiful note inside. Apparently when I go in to enjoy their company and some peaceful “me time” browsing for inspiration and supplies for my next project, I make them smile. Their kindness made me cry and I went to my van thinking about how my day started and how it was changing.
When I stopped in at my mom’s tonight, she told me to check in the garage because “Santa” had dropped off a couple of items for my workshop. I opened the garage to find a router and a scroll saw gifted to me from a long time family friend who wanted to help me out by sharing his extra tools.
I thought about how I felt when today started, and how I felt after so much kindness had come my way from different places in a matter of a few hours, and I said a prayer of thanks. Then I thought about what it was that I was expecting God to do that would make things OK before I stopped being angry. And I realized that maybe it isn’t something HE needs to do.
So if Stuart is in party mode, drinking wine and dancing around the Christmas tree, then maybe that’s where I should be too, and whatever our “new normal” Christmas is going to be this year, I want to have just as much fun as he does.